diary message one.

Dear Niall,                                                      at my dads

 

Im getting totally crazy.  Their trying to be this perfect family I don’t really fit in this perfect family.. Today I woke up and I didn’t went downstairs before she leaves. Because when she is home and I’m leaving my room she goes to inspect it and just before she leaves she is like make your bed, clean the mirror, throw those old drawings away, clean your closet it is messy , make the baskets look tidy cause otherwise I have to do it Monday and o  yeah,  get  your DVD back on the good place.  GOODMORNING. So when she gets in her car and drove away i went downstairs to say good morning to my dad and my sister.  I love my dad, but he is also totally infected with the clean sickness. So I sat down to watch the voice  on the tablet, cause I missed it that night. He was like hey girl, get something to eat. I said I will eat after I watch the voice.  During the voice he came bring me some slice of bread and said you want this? And I declared him I wanted to eat after the voice he finally understand.  When I got a plate out to eat he said immediately  when you finish eating you had to clean the table, put the plate and your glass in the machine wash your hands clean your mount and put everything back on the good place. I was getting dizzy of all those cleaning this. But  then he finally left for grocery shopping. FREEDOM. So eat and cleaned everything he wanted me to.

Then I went upstairs to made my homework. When they came home from grocery shopping  my dad came up to see me. ‘so you are doing homework? What are you doing?’ ‘geography’  ‘aha, you better learn that really well and after this you have to clean your room’.  Will this ever stop? No it wont.

In de afternoon my dad had this tennis game, so I went down to watch friends. I was still wearing my jogging pants because I started make homework in the morning and I ended in the afternoon.  He comes home from his tennis game, first thing he said? ‘shouldn’t you wear something else? She is coming home soon.’  Why should I look like she wants me to? When she came home my dad said I HAVE  to say hello to her. When I walked in too the living room she looked down at my pants , I saw her looking and I said, yeah, I was having this pajamas  day and.. she looked my in the eye and said:  Yeah you have that very often don’t you? I almost never have those days because my mom only let me once a month have pajama day, and she don’t allow me to have pajama day. Mmm. She said.

So I went upstairs again. IS IT NEVER ENOUGH? No it isn’t. cause while I was writing these,  my sister came up en said, you have to come down for dinner  but you first have to clean your room. Who said that? She and daddy said my sister said en she leaves the room to go eat dinner.

I could seriously punch her in the face on that moment, but I stayed calm and eat my dinner.

 

I love u niall

Xx me

 

This was just today.